I wrote a poem this summer that I forgot about, and I recently found it.
My heart is screaming
It wants to burst free
Trying to get out a word-
No, three: please answer me
Seeking an answer to a silent question
An unending question
The one that builds within
And tries to force it's way out
But it can't.
I hold back.
I close my eyes
As if darkness will solve my problem
I shut my lips tight
As if silence can help me
But I know
I'm alone until my question speaks
No one can hear my heart scream
I hide it away and hope someone might listen hard enough
No
People cannot hear
If they hear it and do nothing
My heart won't just scream
It will bleed
In fear I push my screaming heart down my throat
I try to breathe
I can't.
I must.
I move forward in silence
Only I can hear the noise
Someday I won't be alone
For now, this is alright
